Before I Became a Mother

Maria Khalife
2010 / 4 / 3

God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers.

Before I Became a Mother

Before I Became a Mother … There was never a problem sleeping whenever I felt tired. The time I crawled into bed wasn’t dependent on anything but my own schedule. I never dreamed there’d be a day when I wouldn’t even have time to brush my teeth or comb my hair!

Before I Became a Mother … My home stayed meticulously clean and I was happy to have friend drop by unannounced. There weren’t toys spread all over the place. I never gave a second thought to the sharp corners on my coffee table. Who even knew some plants contained poison?! I wasn’t tuned into the controversy about immunizations and autism.

Before I Became a Mother …I had no idea that watching a child sleep with love in my heart was as entertaining as a novel or a good movie. I never knew that my child would grow up to tease me about such a wonderful thing, and for being so emotional. I never knew how clearly I’d identify with fear and pain just by looking into a child’s eyes.

Before I Became a Mother … I never understood the deep connection between me and my nursing child, and that even if he was asleep at the end, I couldn’t bear to put him into his crib. I never knew how weakness felt when I could not stop my child’s pain when he skinned his knees. I had no idea that my life becoming child-centered could tilt my world so quickly. I did not understand that handling diapers and spit ups would become a practical form of love and not be distasteful because of it.

Before I Became a Mother … I had no idea that the spark of love could become so palpable so quickly. I never knew I could have so much love for one so small. I never knew how much I would love and enjoy all the aspects of being a mother. I didn’t know that seeing to the needs of such a tiny child would make me the focus of attention for one baby’s life and that it was so joyful.

Before I Became a Mother … I did not know that my love and caring would show outside on my body. I wasn’t aware how keen my sense of hearing and attention could become so that I would be awakened at the slightest sound from my child. I didn’t know until after I had a child that my attention would never be fully on my own pursuits until he became much more self sufficient. I wanted all about and around him to be “okay.”

Before I Became a Mother … I was clueless that this adventure would involve love, joy, sadness, worry, awe, sacrifice, and tremendous satisfaction. I had no idea that my feelings would be enhanced to such big proportions. I don’t have one moment of regret.

Story to warm your heart

A baby was about to begin his earth experience and asked God some questions about it.
“How will I handle being so small and helpless? Can I continue singing and being happy as I am here? How will I understand the new language? How will I be able to talk with you from there? Who’s going to protect me?”

The baby was experiencing the peace in Heaven, but the pull of Earth voices was tugging at him, so he hurriedly ask God “I seem to be leaving now. Please tell me my angel on earth’s name?”

“You’ll call her mommy,” said God.


A young boy said to his mother, How old were you when I was born?
His mother replied, 23.
Wow, that s a lot of time we missed spending together.
~ Unknown




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